First Impressions

I really wanted to make a good first impression if anyone were to read this.

I was reluctant to start posting a blog, simply because once I started, I knew I would have to keep it up. I knew from all my research and following the gurus that letting weeks go by without posting does not look good. But then again, not having a blog at all looks pretty bad.

My learning curve has been so tremendous over the last year and half that developing new content on top of what I was doing seemed unattainable. It wasn’t, but that was what I told myself. So I chose the easy way out and put it off.

I was over-thinking it. I needed to get “naked” just like I tell my clients. So here goes – being authentic, real and rather, well, naked.

I have been hiding. Hiding who I am, because once anything I wrote was out there in cyberspace, for anyone to see, which was very scary for me. What if people judge me? What if they don’t like me? What if they say all those things I am afraid of are true (even when I know they aren’t)?

It sounds absolutely ridiculous when I say it or see it in writing now. I thought I had conquered these self-sabotaging fears. Yet, here they were again. Even though I know that negative thoughts will intrude and mastering them is an ongoing process, I didn’t want to have to work through something else. I wanted to be over my own self-talk. Done. Finished. Even though I have helped my clients overcome these exact same fears and the fact that they can come back, I have to deal with it again. It’s time I did.

It seems that 2014 is the year I suck it up and put myself out there – my hopes, my fears and my opinions. If people don’t like what I have to say, they don’t have to read or listen. For those who do like it, welcome!